J's Life of Fantasy

2010-05-26T02:49:00.003+08:00

2 years have pass and yet memories stays

happy birthday to me

two years without you
i guess i really fare badly when i had the chance two years ago

2010-04-04T17:30:00.002+08:00

真心相爱的人才会懂
什么叫做海誓山盟永不分离
为爱伤心的人才会了解
为什么爱一个人却要离去
多少个夜里我们相对无言
传说中美丽的神话都遥不可及
多少次我们曾泪流如雨
到最后才发现爱才是真的唯一
你是否知道其实我有多爱你
可是我却没能带给你幸福的旋律
你是我生命永远的奇迹
两个人走到今天真的不容易
爱需要全心全意好好的去珍惜
可心.. 心已累了人也已泪流满面

2010-03-30T01:05:00.002+08:00

thanks for bringing a smile onto my face every single day especially today
because of you
i managed to put down the past
because of you
i had a brand new re-born life
because of you
life for me is no longer the same

2010-01-18T03:55:00.008+08:00

stopped listening to this song few months ago due to something
today i chance upon this song and the melody is still so great after so long

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了

還記得我們的約定嗎
我已經漸漸忘記了牽著你的手的感覺
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得
但你的樣子在我心裡也已漸漸變的模糊
真的好想好想在看看你

2010-01-15T02:14:00.004+08:00

DNR
Ice Cream (Talk To Me)

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now who's to say we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

从过去到现在我喜欢你 !

2010-01-13T01:07:00.001+08:00

Chinese Translation Of a Thai love song Ruk Ter Mai Mee One Yood ( Never Stop Loving You )

分離後方真正明瞭
再沒有誰
將真心的愛我
與你相同的人
應該沒有
回來爲了取回承諾
自那位
曾經與我相愛之人
不論將發生
何事在我身上
你沒有一天拋棄我
而讓我孤獨

想要讓你知道
我最思念你
想要讓你知道
還是最愛你
愛你沒有停止的一天
訴自內心深處
想要讓你知道
我還是愛著還是愛著你
但你此刻你在何處
是否了解我需要著你
過去我曾做錯
讓你心碎
抱歉啊

若還尚未太遲
懇請...原諒
回來爲了取回承諾
自那位
曾經與我相愛之人
不論將發生
何事在我身上
你沒有一天拋棄我
而讓我孤獨
想要讓你知道
我最思念你
想要讓你知道
我還是最愛你

愛你沒有停止的一天
訴自內心深處
想要讓你知道
我還是愛著還是愛著你
但你此刻你在何處
是否了解我需要著你
若是必須失去你
是否知道我還愛著你
等候至今
尚無影蹤
或者你另有新歡
才不掛懷
依戀纏綿
再也不留了

2010-01-09T02:10:00.007+08:00

punch ; ying gwah sia jai [ more than sadness ]

2010-01-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

woke up at 5pm today T.T

lucky that person never call me..phew~ tomorrow then go ba x}

vang trang khoc ; tearful (crying) moon

how many person have listen to this song before? it's one of my favourite!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEaBpf--uJA

and the english translation

http://www.flurl.com/video/34050635_eng_sub_vang_trang_khoc_nhat_tinh_anh_amp_khanh_ngoc.htm

2010-01-07T09:50:00.001+08:00

the time now is 9.50am and i am still AWAKE!!!!!

die
later gonna wake up at 12pm to do something at a faraway place ; JURONG!
no need sleep liao

walking zombie T.T

2010-01-07T01:42:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 2010!

new year new beginning new resolution
and
my new year resolution is to sleep more than i did in year 2009 !

kick start the year with something good :D well not exactly but something i've been hoping for and it finally somehow came true after one year? hopefully~

life's been good

have not been to pub for 9 days which is something good
have not drink any beer or liquod
have not been taking drugs =x but have been smoking alot..lol.

nothing much to blog because it's confidential..LOL! talking rubbish -.-' someone have been commenting that i talked alot of rubbish and she's the rubbish bin =x because i am talking to her so all the rubbish was 'thrown' to her and rubbish was meant to be in the rubbish bin and so she's the one! lol.no offence x} iMISSyou!! and i really really do~

2009-12-26T04:26:00.000+08:00

don't even know what the hell am i doing this few days!!!

too much on mind
too much to think about
too little time for everything and too late for goodbye

ended up wasting life in pubs and clubs
drowning in beer and liquod
dancing in a world of illusion [ things i took which i swear i'll never touch ]

what hides behind a smiling face and cheerful character is but a torn and battered heart
really wish that i kena robbed again
but this time round please whack me real hard so i can make an excuse to have a good rest
i am really very tired ; i am referring to mentally tiredness

2010 is just around the corner hopefully it will be a better year.....hopefully~

2009-12-14T05:39:00.002+08:00

alot of people tell me that i've changed alot..even sarah said so too..

2009-11-14T08:49:00.004+08:00

computer still down T.T
waiting for mr xanniel to finish his APEC duty and perhaps that's the only time my desktop can rise from the dead.hahaha T.T

suddenly i miss a dear friend so went to her blog and was glad that she's living life great and it dawn upon me that our past those memories be it happy or unhappiness moments is already THE PAST

these few days~
im wasting life.lol.out at 4pm and back at 8am T.T and i had already been drunk for 4days..wth..tonight going pub again..gonna waste my life again T.T

hope to forget the promised happiness ASAP and i know i can do it -.-'

2009-10-23T13:04:00.003+08:00

unable to surf net as my computer is down!!
currently at cousin's place

got robb on 21st october '2009 around 4am plus at geylang 44 and was sent to changi general hospital by the police..suffer slight head and hand injuries and currently having neck and backaches..since doctor said there's no fracture nothing and i am ok so i got discharge..hospital is BORED! and the service is (sorry to say) super bad! sarah agrees with me too..so in future if i got into accident again CGH is a place i will never want to be admitted to...i rather go home T.T

so goodbye to my....

handphone
IC
Posb GO!card
cash

so if someone sms you guys after 22nd october '2009 it is definately not me but those who rob me..LOL! instead of asking how i am my friends seems more interested in taking my photos T.T seldom see me in such a state hor? haha but anyway thanks to you and you and all friends for their concern especially those who after know i got robbed seems more angrier and pissed off then me by those who rob me T.T haha x)

2009-09-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

多久了没有你的消息
上一封简讯是星期几
又错过了与你的约定
对不起真的不是故意

有时候没办法陪着你
你总是对我说没关系
放不下我对你的任性
对不起不该让你伤心

有时候你会让让我
尽管我大男人发作
有时候你会装作不懂
默默地留一些空间给我这些事情其实我一直都藏在心里

请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去我学着让你更安心

别赌气别任性别放弃说声对不起
别赌气别任性别放弃

请你相信我我会更加珍惜
请你相信我我会呵护着你
小小的爱情却是我最大的幸运
疼爱的想念的都是你
请你相信一个这样的我请原谅我对不起对不起

2009-09-21T03:27:00.003+08:00

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE titled Ruk Ter Mai Mee Wan Yood :DD

and if i am not wrong
ruk ter mai mee wan yood
means
will not stop loving you even for a day

2009-09-21T02:53:00.004+08:00

a person who made me smile in all ways ;

little notes
little gesture

and a person who left because i've no time for her

i lost everything about her which include contact and photos when i lost my phone

not that i still love her (oh please) but it's the memories
it's like when you hear some songs which link to someone or been to somewhere you've been with that someone..your memory just jolt up and ta dah~ that particular person came to mind..just that simple..good old memories i suppose =)

up till now certain song still made me think of certain people and i can be super emo after that.lol.so friends will ask me can ma (permission sounds too serious) if they wanna sing that particular song or on that particular song and etc..amusing.

another nice meaningful song

2009-09-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

2009-09-19T02:58:00.005+08:00

browsing through the old photos of friend's album in facebook and suddenly i miss all the good times back then and a nice old friend by the name of

angeline yap xiao en

it's nice to go back to the past once in awhile ; fond memories i should say =)

4s5 chalet
eg outing
all the party world sessions
one day tour around singapore with rachel. fengming and joseph
the wednesday daily routine and fun times with eg but the sadness thing is that i lost touch with all the fun and i lost all the photos when i reformat my desktop D: i guess for now all that remains is pure memories that stays ^^

2009-09-19T01:43:00.003+08:00

A Simple Meaningful Story

The angel asked,

"You aren't happy. How can I help you?"

The poet replied,

"I have everything. But I lack only one thing. Can you give it to me?"

To which the angel happily said,

"Sure. I can give you anything you desired."

The poet stared right into the angel's eyes,

"I want happiness."

"All right,"

the angel nodded. And the angel proceed to take away everything the poet possessed. The angel took away the poet's talent, destroyed his looks, robbed his riches and killed his wife. The angel then left for heaven.

A month later, the angel appeared in front of the poet. The poet was lying on the ground, half dead, hungry and struggling for survival. The angel then returned him everything he once possessed and left for heaven again.

Two weeks later, the angel paid a visit to the poet. This time the poet together with his wife thanked the angel profusely. He finally found happiness.

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often a person need to lose everything before he or she know how to cherish

actually happiness is right in front of you. Just what is happiness?

when you are hungry a bowl of hot noodle in front of you is happiness.
when you are tired a soft bed is happiness
when you are crying a gentle tissue is happiness.

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happiness has no definition
sometimes a small actions can touch your heart
whether is it happiness it depends on how you look at it

in life never say NEVER because nothing in this world is immutabLe and let us not forget yesterday for Yesterday is always a lesson for tomorrow!!

2009-09-17T02:23:00.005+08:00

had dinner with the girl next door..lol.she so lame..every time see me confirm stick out her tongue and show me one stupid funny face..i enjoyed her company..work was bored but she spice life up..haha.all managers and colleagues (mine and hers) are beginning to suspect me and her got something going on..LOL! we are just purely friends..F-R-I-E-N-D-S !! =D

it was raining during evening time..all GO staffs were like trying to get all the tables and chairs in then she also started playing with us..haha.the scenario is real funny..well she's a phillipines holding a S pass..by right if you hold the S pass for 3 months you can actually applied for PR status but she don't want and her reason is CPF -.-' chris the restaurant manager of GO (OC outlet) talk talk talk talk then from CPF talk until CPR =.= joke of the day..lol.

"i wanna go buck to phillipines to burrow something"

"i got buck-aches"

haha.this makes kevin and i plus the girl next door laugh till pengz =DD
it all started when the girl next door came and borrow lighter from me because someone at her store is having birthday celebrations and because of her accent kevin heard wrongly and so the whole thing started but lol i heard borrow but kevin heard burrow T.T and she's also one cartoon character lor..i'm not the only one who smoke and she walked all the way from her store to the end of my store just to ask me for lighter =.= next time ask her wait for lightning..hahahaha =DD

tomorrow is the last day of training for GO trainees (OC outlet) and so after tomorrow we won't be seeing them..initially before they came all of our outlet staffs was like..shit..confirm die! >.< because due to their trainings in our store our part time staffs roster all kena freeze so left only three full time staffs but after they came..things doesn't seems too bad because the new birds are good too..eager and humble to learn..

october 3rd the opening of GO (OC outlet) Jing was saying when they're opened the whole lot of us are gonna march down to orchard and invade their outlet..haha.

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

your burdens i will bear but first i need your hand then forever can begin
whisper three words
i'll come running and girl you know that
i'll be there

2009-09-14T03:23:00.001+08:00

i love you
所以只能说声对不起
任何藉口都没有

i love you
已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
像你离得无反顾 (是挽不回的错误)

你身上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问已无法
原来曾经拥有过还比失去痛苦 (远比失去痛苦)

i love you
对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐

i love you
好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

我身上永远烙着你的笑
那么绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过还比失去痛苦

2009-09-14T02:18:00.016+08:00

Jing's masterpiece! lol.

so proud! someone say i shuai..the fourth person within 2 days :D LOL!

someone just smsed me that her friend wants to be my girlfriend? i was kinda shock and it was kinda sudden so i just told her deep down there's still someone in my heart and lol that girl told me she don't mind but i don't feel like hurting others..the pain is unbearable and so let fate decide ba :DD

work today was bored! but next week more BORED

next week 5 staffs from orchard outlet will be coming to our outlet for training because orchard outlet will open on 3rd october so the staff need to be train and all the part timers in our outlet roster freeze!! so left all the full timers T.T shan shan was like OMG!! confirm die..sure..i thought so too..we'll see..think positive ba..wahaha.lol.think positive and die in peace.LOL!!

2009-09-13T00:23:00.001+08:00

lol.today i was late for work again as usual

jon : you've work for how long ah?

me : 2 weeks?

jon : how many days were you on time?

me : first day! :DD

jon nearly fainted..lol.he's the restaurant manager but he's a nice one and heard from the seniors that i'm the only one who dare to talk back and jon told me that too..LOL! ps arh xP

2009-09-12T02:06:00.006+08:00

i'm so lifeless now! >.< everyday work work work work work!! D:

because of work i miss out alot of stuffs with friends
because of work i missed xanniel's birthday
because of work linus jio me go geylang i can't go
because of work valencia jio me go prawning i can't go
because of work i quarrel with someone
because of work i cannot go see darling yi kai
because of work i cannot go see sweetie hui en
because of work i cannot go see chloe - my new born niece just 2 days old

LOL! all because of work but working's not that bad actually..lol.contradiction

just now as i fish out a cigarette i saw some writtings on my cigarette box and i think i know who's the culprit --> JING! because before i left my work place i asked jing to look after my stuff awhile..hmmm today kevin's on mc. meimei left early and the 'thirty years old' lady next door busy with her work..sighs so bored..no one entertain me!! two more days to go!!! because monday off! :DD wahahahaha xP and now got to sleep liao because tomorrow another long day at work D: sianzzzzzzZZZzzzzZzzZZZzzz

yikai vs hui en --> hahaha x)

2009-09-07T05:23:00.000+08:00

tired..but cannot sleep..sian..why do you keep appearing in my mind............
HELPPPPPPPPPPP! lol.
lalalala~ i'm just crapping..lol.time now is 5.23am..everyone should be in lala land ba.

life now is getting more and more bored..came across a quote..

love puts in the fun together the sad in apart and joy in a heart

goodnight world so should i say good morning? LOL!

2009-09-05T04:05:00.006+08:00

天快亮了能不能别离开呢
沉默像首悲伤的歌
捂上视线却模糊了

你要走了也带走所有快乐
甜蜜的片段散落了
疲倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候你却已经远远离开我

离开我了
梦醒了还剩什么
我要的幸福消失了你的心曾经属于我的

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候你却已经远远离开我

有过的快乐我都记得
回忆还旋转着爱怎么停了我们都累了

2009-08-30T12:32:00.003+08:00

再好的东西都有失去的一天
再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天
再爱的人也有远走的一天
再美的梦也有苏醒的一天
该放弃的决不挽留
该珍惜的决不放手
分手后不可以做朋友因为彼此伤害过也不可以做敌人因为彼此深爱过

2009-08-26T01:49:00.003+08:00

exhausted
energy level minus 100 lol but now trying very hard to stay awake..

tried to smoke non stop to stay awake in the end more and more giddy
forget it
gonna have a brief post and off to bed

- went orchard
- went woodland to have dinner
- went tantockseng hospital with linus to visit taniel
- went home

the end..goodnight world~ till we meet again

2009-08-26T01:01:00.001+08:00

it was until today i knew something i wish i'll never know

2009-08-21T12:08:00.004+08:00

sarah got into a bike accident

rushed to CGH last night
the sarah i saw was different from the sarah i knew
she was covered in injuries from the hands to the legs near to being an egypt mummy
she was in a shock i supposed
down and upset plus a tinge of scare-ness so not like the cheerful and bubbly girl i used to know

sarah don't think of the negative you'll be good you'll be fine trust me for that and don't forget what you've promised =) and the few of us will pay you a visit shortly all you need now is more and more rest so takecare oh~

our limits of tolerance had reached the top and nearly explode because of that thing

know your role
understand your role
being an imaginary role doesn't brings you anywhere for it will only brings irritation to others

2009-08-18T12:56:00.003+08:00

有相聚就有离别离别总是让人难过
次次的离别带来越来越深的感伤却又迫不得已
面对离别
我们别无选择只能说一句 -且行且珍惜-

当离别拉开窗帘当回忆睡在胸前要说再见真的很伤感
世界上没有绝对的永恒
有聚终有散

对不起
没能守护到你最后
对不起
没能牵着你的手一直到老
对不起
你的快乐我给不了
对不起
其实我好爱你
所以请你一定要幸福请你一定要比我幸福

终于走到这一天
终于要说再见
昨天的欢乐还印在我脑海你的笑声还在心中回荡
为什么人生要面对离别
为什么爱会有终点?
一句再见其实再也不见以后的路各自走好你的坏你的好只有在回忆成为永恒